Diary of a Switcher: Week 8

Vaping | 28 September 2017
Emma Carneyby Emma Carney

Have I finally reached the limit in the number of smoking puns (guns, puns? Oh I give up..)  I can open these diary entries with? Not today Jose, so tell those negative thoughts to butt out of our catch up time as we slide smoothly into week 8 of Diary of a Switcher.

Day 48: Week two of using my new vapes and I am starting to get used to them and I don’t have a preference just yet. I thought I would but I suppose I am still grieving. I’ve started to explore new flavours and have found myself getting more adventurous but something is still missing. I think, as these vapes are a little bigger than Ziggy Starpuff, I am still trying to replace the way I’d hold a cigarette.

AYR was featured in Wallpaper* magazine this week and, I must admit, I agreed with every point raised. Current vapes are still not filling that void. They are either too big, too messy or just too much effort to use. When I held AYR last week it was in between my fingers like my much-missed cigarettes… I want to vape but I feel like I am missing a limb being sans-cigarette.

Day 51:  Nothing to report from the past few days but Stoptober is looming – and I am attempting to get my partner involved in it. It’s based on the concept that it is easier to quit longer term if you manage to go smoke-free for 28 days.  I know I promised not to become one of those former smokers but I  just can’t help worrying about him and everyone I love who smokes. I feel so good now. And yet, I am angry. Ok, scrap that, it’s not an anger it’s a white hot rage. He could die because of something I know I cannot stop. It has to be him. He has to want it. Why doesn’t he want it? Why didn’t I want it for so long? Damn, how strong this addiction is.

Day 52: I know everyone says this, and I never quite believed it myself, but since switching to vaping I’ve also found that I have more money. Aah, yes… money. That elusive siren that we never seem to have enough of, which is completely normal if you’re anything like me. As much as I tell myself I am not Beyonce, I still find myself trawling websites in the dead of night drooling over shoes I can’t walk in, let alone afford… until vaping happened. Now I can put a “bit aside” from the money I save making the change… well, until that “bit aside” finds itself strewn over the counter at the MAC store in Carnaby street. I have no idea how it happened. I blame Fashion Week.

Yet I regret nothing about this little escapade as what I spent equated to under what I had saved from not smoking. Yikes! It really is an expensive habit.

Day 54: It’s interesting how many of my friends have taken an interest in vaping since I started doing it in front of them. Many before were very anti-vaping and just presumed it wasn’t as enjoyable or effective as smoking and was mainly a hobby of a certain subculture. Yet tonight, I found myself explaining to two of my dearest smoking lady friends how to add the juice, how to change a coil and how to actually inhale the vapour. I think I may have got one seriously converting, which is great news. The Boy? Not so much and that is starting to get under my skin. I know it shouldn’t, but it does.

Am I alone in my fear for smoking loved ones? I am beginning to find it very distracting indeed. Especially as I know how I used to feel when people brought it up with me…

Any advice most welcomed and why not continue the conversation over on the AYR social channels.

Until next week!

Love,

Emma

 

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